I feel like this moment right now is my safe place to be alone with my thoughts and not feel them attack me as they sometimes do. It's peaceful. It's something that doesn't happen naturally that often.
When you feel like you can't get away from yourself, what do you do? Do you draw? Write? Listen to music? Maybe you are more of an extrovert than I am and go outside to see what you find? Movies, friends, dates? Any number of activities one could do to calm their minds. I personally, love to turn up the music where I can't hear anything outside of my house and let the lyrics fill my head.
I know many of you, much like myself, worry and think constantly about millions of things. Like flashes of colors that cross your vision in the course of a day. And we often get stuck between taking care of everything else and taking care of ourselves that we simply do neither. Some might call us lazy or say we have no motivation and its not like that, it is hardly ever like that. We just become so overloaded with this chore list in our heads that we tend to put our own self-care at the end of it and then shut down because of the mental exhaustion it causes. We become so wrapped up in our own thoughts and actions that we have to take a break.
And then we end up here. Caught in a cage within ourselves, mentally running from ourselves. And it doesn't have to be this way.
So I propose to each and every one of you, to take a break. Take ten or twenty minutes of your day to stop what you are doing and take a breather. Do something you enjoy. Something that has absolutely nothing to do with your worries. Something to clear your head, that way you can go back to what you were doing before without feeling this weight on your chest that was smothering you.
It's these small moments that we give ourselves that allow us to move on and better ourselves instead of digging a deeper hole into our minds and getting trapped there.
Never be afraid to tell someone you need some time for self-care. You are important. You matter.
And never forget, it is completely okay not to be okay.
Goodbye, for now, dear friends.